After all this time it’s still so hard not to touch you.  It goes against everything my body is telling me.  I wish I knew every thought, every feeling you experience.  Not to save you, not to fix you but that I could walk the journey with you side by side.  I’d go to battle with you, fighting each and every demon that exists within you.  That we could fight our demons together.

I wish you would let me in.

I’ve had glimpses into your soul and never seen anything more beautiful.  I wish you could see what I see.  I cherish each of those moments, hoping you’ve seen the same in me.  We share broken piece’s and found home in one another.  Our love illuminated those severed bits and I was too scared to let you see.

So now I’m building my strength, putting my broken piece’s back together again and putting it out for all to see.  Because we are all perfectly imperfect and I cannot hold it inside anymore. I will look fear in the eye and never run away. I’m learning to do it alone, just for me.  I will not hide again, I won’t shy away.  I’m finally learning to love me.

These are my feelings, this is my heart.  This is my story.

Much Love,

L